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Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Another awkward anniversary

It's been a year now, I think. I remember that when we went to the ER it was a very late Monday night that turned into a very early Tuesday morning. I think we went in on June 14th, but my hospital bracelet may say June 15th. I still have that around somewhere. For some reason I kept it.
I hadn't been thinking about this coming date until Sunday when I drove by the hospital twice. Maybe it was the way the air smelled or the humidity but suddenly the date struck me and I realized that it's been a year.
This is the fastest year I've ever experienced. A year ago I couldn't wait for the time to pass. That's all I wanted. I thought things would hurt less if the time went by faster. And for the most part, it's actually worked. Things do hurt a little less. Of course a year ago tonight, I had absolutely no idea that I'd be going through the same thing (only worse) two months later.
So...I will have another awkward anniversary coming up in about two months.
I wish I could forget.

Today may be a little tough at work. My boss who I like won't be around and things are feeling a little strange there right now. I'm waiting for word about a job I applied for (in my department). I'm not feeling very positive about it right now. If I don't get it I kind of feel like maybe I should start looking for another job. I really like to work there but I don't feel like I can do it for much longer with the money I make. I need to do/make more. I hope I find some stuff out soon.